(Note: This was my first post ever, but should give you some ideas about who I am.)

Milo the Fluffball

Okay, so I have been warm and comfy in my website, awaiting the day I will see the light of this blog world. But something in me is pushing me to get something out and get started. But, but….it looks scary. All that light, all that unfamiliar territory. Comments, and feedback, and exposure, oh my!  But to truly live in this blog-land, it is time to come out. This is a lot of struggling, a lot of pushing, but I hear its worth it in the end, to unleash your creative person within. Why don’t you, any of you,  anyone, come with me.  Help me out of the dark comfy place into a learning journey. I am going to share some of my growing process until I feel comfortable. With time, I hope to share more.  But be gentle, though I am a veteran, to some degree, in the web world, I am baby in the blog world. Don’t make sudden sharp movements, don’t yell too loud, and please don’t stick any pins in me. 😉

I am coming slowly out of a closed off life, and a woman finding herself again, so this is a dual journey. My rebirthing as a person, and birth as a blogger. You as a reader, any reader {{{hears crickets chirping}}}  will grow with me. You can be a part of this process if you choose, but I must say one thing. I only welcome the helpful and the positive. The world has enough negative. It is everywhere you turn. I read an online news article, and negative comments abound, I read a blog, and negative splattered everywhere. I watch a video/vlog, and negative this and that. Not to say that there is not plenty if not more positive, but there is just too much of the latter too.  It does no good except clutter the air, the mind, and the heart. I am fragile of heart, but not a pushover. If someone has something constructive, yet well mannered (no hidden digs either), then I warmly welcome it.  If there is positivity and kindness, I welcome it. But if there is negativity or downright nastiness, then I hit delete. I am coming from a very painful and wounded place, and I will accept no negativity here. I intend to come out, and to heal, and will allow no person to hold me back anymore.  That’s all on that, one paragraph, “nuff” said. =)

Who is this mysterious woman and this dark place she comes from?  Well, hey, I just met you. You wouldn’t expect a life story when you first meet someone, would you? So, let’s get to know each other slowly, and in time, maybe we can grow to be friends. Fair enough? Just call me Kat.  I hope I am lucky enough to call you a reader, at least one day.

I am developing this blog, and I invite you to help me along. I welcome tips, experience stories, and just general information. Heck, anything you’ve got to share, as long as it keeps in the spirit of positive and growth.

For now, let’s call it the blog project. I am still trying to figure out it’s general direction. Even though I have a lot to say and share, that does not mean what we all have to say, blabber on about, or have opinions on, is worth reading, or interesting to anyone else.  😉

I have lots of subject areas to post about, but as I grow on this journey, I want to figure out which areas interest people the most. I want to do what I love, but also engage you the reader, with something of interest. My time is valuable, your time is valuable, I want to spend it wisely. (At least most of the time.)  That is why I welcome input. You the readers will help me, by being signposts in this blogging road.

Think of this as unsettled, empty territory in the wild, wild west. I have bought up a big chunk of land, my website. It is largely empty. I am laying down one road…one little piece of foundation right now. But, I could use a little help. I need to clean out the clutter (useless thoughts and meanderings too dawdly), lay down some  roadways, put up signposts, build a few dwellings, and so on. Think of the categories of which I will post on, as my dwellings. Most will be more residential in nature. But some day, at some point I may add a commercial building or two. But that’s only later, and if I find a direction that is good for me professionally. For now, this is largely a personal journey. I am coming back out into the world. As scary as that can seem.

So, I grab my proverbial/metaphorical binoculars. I seek a couple landmarks, natural wonders, even a signpost or two to guide me. Will you help?  Show me some signs, help me to figure the layout?

Okay, so, I laid down a little foundation for you there. Now to give you some clue about me. I am first and foremost a woman with a huge heart. It has been broken oh so many times, by many means and many people. But it is a healing heart. Compassion is fine, I sure could use some of that, heck anyone could. Pity….ah…no! I am a tough cookie and have survived a lot. So make no mistake. But, I have been hidden away a long time healing.  Sharing yourself with the world is a scary thing. People can be harsh. But if you scratch the surface, you can find, people have heart, and have goodness to give. But, for better or for worse, for pleasant and scariness, here goes!

War wound stories, for later, a brief list of some interests. After being a huge-hearted person first, my self descriptors would be;  artist/creator, writer, graphic and multimedia designer, painter, crafter, photographer, all things purple, computer enthusiast, gamer, stationery-nut, cat-lover, kangaroo and butterfly lover, all animals lover, outdoors woman, and also indoors woman (I love both,)  fisher-woman, organization lover, and yes, I can be the talker. Now while I list those as things I am, and there are more (for later,) I will also list some other things that interest me. I love all things outdoors pretty much, even despite taking long hiatuses from outdoor activity. Nature and all things within her, encompass the very core of me. It comes into all things I do, see, and love.

I love many things indoor too. Some of these dualities include, fishing, hiking, nature collecting, bird watching, swimming, and camping. And the indoor stuff includes all things computer, whether it be tinkering with putting them together, puttering with software of all kinds, graphic design, building web pages, gaming, you name it. The social networking stuff I am wary and nervous about, but have dabbled here and there. Other indoor stuff includes most types of artistry that I have dabbled in whether smaller or larger scale, crafts of many kinds, in general working with my hands, painting (mostly pastels, but dabbled in watercolors, attempting oils, etc, drawing (loved both charcoals and colored pencils), photography,  even tried sculpting which I loved, crazy about any kind of stationery, planners, scrapbooks, journaling, and even interested in the newer things like smash books and project life, art journaling…I love it all. I love to cook, love to read, literature, plays, I am a beginning gardener, mostly interested in edible things for self-sustaining (and I think pesticides taste yucky,) I love Lucy (who wouldn’t/couldn’t), classic animation (the cell by cell type), as well as new kinds,  I love decorating and organizing (though I  have a long ways to go on my dreams there,) and I tend to collect too many things.

Okay, I am sure I am leaving out stuff, which I can add later. But suffice to say, I feel like the typical “jack of all trades, and master of none.”  But I will get there, I intend to master at least a few. And last, but probably most important besides the huge heart thing, is my love of family!  Mine is small right now, has been big before, is ever-changing, but, it always has been, and will remain, so important to every human being. This need to connect, to love and be loved. We sure need more of love in the world.

Right now, my blog is called Katspeak.  That is because my nickname is Kat, and I adore cats with all my heart. The domain and site won’t change, but the blog name might. The direction, and what I write about might change. I am not even sure what kind of blog schedule  I wish to have. Lots might change, I might change… that  is life in general. But my heart and capacity for love, never will change, as won’t the core of me. All the rest…well, evolution in each of ourselves is key, without it, progress is not made, life is stale and stagnant. I look forward to change a little more now, I look forward greatly to improvement and greater things. I am optimistic about the future now, where I once was not. But I have a lot of mountains to climb, and growing pains to do. Won’t you join me?  If you have a useful signpost to show me, ideas to share, optimism to catch on…here I am…ready to come back into the world.

Let me know what you think, keeping to my one request above please, introduce yourself. What interests you?  What interested you in what I have to say or how I say it?  What would interest you within my realm in the future?

I look forward to taking this journey, and hope you will join me. Maybe we can help each other grow.

Until next time, wishing you good days, and warmth always,  =)

Kat

Note: The image above is my precious Maine Coon/Tabby Mix kitty Milo. He is on his cat tower, flashing his fluffy belly, being his lovable self. The picture is taken by me, as are all my blog post images, edited by me, and belongs to me…and copyright by me. Please do not take, borrow, alter etc. my images under any circumstances, except to show others, with a link back here.  This blog is my first attempt, hence the theme I used from WordPress’s selections. Eventually, as I learn more and more, and brush up my web skills, I will be doing all my own stuff, backgrounds, layouts, etc. For now, this is my first attempt, so be kind. Like all else, its a growing process. =)